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I Used to Be Darker

Matthew Porterfield, USA 2013, 90’

Every end connects magically to a beginning. Adolescent Taryn becomes convinced of this when she travels from Ireland to the United States, in pursuit of love, which turns out to be a meaningless affair without the willing participation of her lover. Although Taryn quickly discovers that this transient romance will have serious consequences, she has no intention of returning home. Holed up with an aunt and her uncle’s daughter, she contemplates the love-hate relationship between adults – a couple on the edge of divorce. When they survive this breakdown, she finds a moment of pause. A moment of trauma, withdrawal and apathy before the next struggle for happiness. Where can it be found, if old road signs have led us astray and new directions on the road of life have not yet been erected?

Matthew Porterfield

Matt Porterfield was born in October, 1977 in Baltimore, Maryland. He studied at New York’s Tisch School of the Arts. His second film, Putty Hill, competed in the International New Horizons Competition during the 10th edition of the festival NH. Aside from directing, Porterfield lectures on screenwriting and production at the Film and Media Studies Program of John Hopkins University in Baltimore. Porterfield’s works have been presented at, among others, the Museum of Modern Art, the Pompidou Centre and in Anthology Film Archives. The film I Used To Be Darker was screened in the Forum section at this year’s festival in Berlin.    


2006 Hamilton

2010 Putty Hill

2013 I Used To Be Darker  

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director Matthew Porterfield
screenplay Amy Belk, Matt Porterfield
cinematography Jeremy Saulnier
editing Marc Vives
sound Danny Meltzer
cast Deragh Campbell, Hannah Gross, Ned Oldham, Kim Taylor
producer Eric Bannat, Steve Holmgren, Ryan Zacarias
production Hamilton Film Group, Steady Orbits Produzent, Nomadic Independence Pictures
sales New Europe Film Sales
language English
coloration colour
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